{"id":65,"date":"2009-02-07T08:50:09","date_gmt":"2009-02-07T16:50:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/najin.x10.mx\/journal\/?p=65"},"modified":"2010-08-02T22:49:04","modified_gmt":"2010-08-02T12:49:04","slug":"65","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.najin.ca\/journal\/65\/","title":{"rendered":"on Love."},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"attachment_66\" style=\"width: 210px\" class=\"wp-caption alignleft\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/najin.x10.mx\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/02\/fallwithme.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-66\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-66 \" title=\"fall with me\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/najin.x10.mx\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/02\/fallwithme-200x300.jpg?resize=200%2C300\" alt=\"\" width=\"200\" height=\"300\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-66\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">fall with me (9 hrs photoshop). more: http:\/\/www.najin.ca<\/p><\/div>\n<p>We live our lives terrified of revealing ourselves. Often, it&#8217;s because we were vulnerable and hurt by previous experiences. Heck, even if we weren&#8217;t hurt before&#8230;thoughts of rejection and being taken advantage of drag on and affect our relationships. After all, being cautious is the &#8220;smarter&#8221; thing to do, right? Protect yourself emotionally to prevent yourself from looking like a love-sick fool.<\/p>\n<p>I, for one, definitely lived like this. Constantly weighing out &#8220;pros and cons&#8221;, I resisted showing myself too much or too soon, in order preserve some &#8216;dignity&#8217;. So I&#8217;d end up analysing and looking at relationships objectively; NO exceptions. That way, I would always be above and beyond the emotions and thus the pain I knew it could yeild. So this was life&#8230;I always put myself in situations that I could handle and control.<\/p>\n<p>But is that any way to LIVE?<\/p>\n<p>Granted, if you open yourself up, you can get hurt; it&#8217;s gruelling. But despite the painful lows, can&#8217;t you just imagine the intense and amazing highs that are waiting to be experienced? Let me ask you this&#8230;would you rather continue living robotically, scared of sharing love because you&#8217;re scared of getting hurt&#8230;or would you rather live and truly FEEL, the way we&#8217;re innately wired to do anyway?<\/p>\n<p>The way I see it&#8230;the more time I waste wondering and worrying, the less time I have to share an amazing gift with those I care about. The most amazing love I&#8217;ve ever recieved is the kind that gives and doesn&#8217;t expect anything in return. How could I possibly explore this kind of &#8216;unconditional love&#8217; if I&#8217;m too scared to show any in the first place?<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s ironic when you think about it&#8230;say you fall in love for the first time and you get hurt. *Ouch!* So you condition yourself to protect your heart because it&#8217;s the more &#8216;logical&#8217; thing to do. But if you REALLY think about it, realize what you&#8217;re missing out on when you sheild yourself that way! If you don&#8217;t open yourself up, how can you possibly allow yourself to experience delirious, heart pumping, unconditional LOVE?<\/p>\n<p>Scary? Hell Yes. Will it hurt? Probably.<br \/>\nBut for the sake of allowing yourself to truly be human, take the plunge.<\/p>\n<p>: ) It&#8217;s so worth it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>We live our lives terrified of revealing ourselves. Often, it&#8217;s because we were vulnerable and hurt by previous experiences. Heck, even if we weren&#8217;t hurt before&#8230;thoughts of rejection and being taken advantage of drag on and affect our relationships. After all, being cautious is the &#8220;smarter&#8221; thing to do, right? 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